Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Check this out

We watched "How Great Is Our God" tonight and I am absolutely amazed by what the speaker talked about. Take a look at the picture above and think about just how crazy cool our God is!

Laminin is a protein that holds our cells together. Without laminin, our bodies would not function. The crazy thing is that under a microscope laminin looks like a cross, how insane is that?! I mean seriously, How amazing is it that just like this little cross holds us together just like the cross of Christ holds us to him.

Colossians 1:15-20 (New International Version) He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy. For God was pleased to have all his fullness dwell in him,and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross.

He truly is everything to me

Easter's coming up soon. Lately i've hit a lot of rough times. I'm busy, Im tired, Im stressed, Im worn down, I've had some hard times with friends, my dad had open heart surgery and i know that God is always there and that in him I can find rest but its still really hard sometimes. In the midst of all of it though I would have moments where right when i reached that point where I wasn't sure if I could handle one more thing I felt this peace rush over me, a calm that I can't describe and felt God reminding me calmly that in that he was there for me, that everything had a purpsose even if i couldn't see it but mostly that he loves me more than i could ever ask or imagine. Enough to send his son to Earth for me. What a reminder! I mean when's the last time you really thought about that? The Almighty, Creator of the universe, our Savior and Lord loves us more than we could ever fathom and he calls us his children and his friends. We can't even comprehend that kind of love..... In Alexandria, where I live, we have this thing called the Passion Drama put on by a local church where you walk through scenes of Jesus' life. It's amazing to think about all that Christ went through for us, as many times as we deny him, and disobey him, and turn our backs on him, he forgives us anyways and never for a second does he ever stop loving us. That is truly unconditional love. No one could ever even come close to loving us the way that God does. So I hope that you all have a blessed Easter. I've posted some lyrics below, let it be a reminder and an encouragement to share and to realize that the Easter story isn't just a story, It is the ultimate demonstration of God's love for us.

I grew up in sunday school
I memorized the Golden rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the
story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that led Him up to Calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But i'll never be the same
Because he changed my life when He became...

Everything to me
He's more than a
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that i'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that he is...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything
And looking back over my life at the end
I'll go to meet you saying you've been...

You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
You're everything to me
Lord, you're everything to me

Everything to Me by: Avalon

Monday, March 29, 2010


Today I was looking through the sites I've saved in my favorites and i came across the lifehouse, everything skit. It is sooo powerful. Heres a link:

When is the last time you guys really thought about God's gift to us? He loved us so much, despite all the wrong, messed up, sinful things we do, that he sent his only son to die for us. Can you even fathom that kind of a true, unconditional love? I can't even begin to comprehend how much God loves us. I hope that the skit touched your heart, i know that no matter how many times I watch it It will always make me stop and stand in awe of my amazing God and the unconditional love that he has for his children.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

You're beautiful

How is a girl ever supposed to live up to the worlds expectations? I sat in a room today and listened to my aunts tell me how i needed to lose twenty pounds and change my hair and wear more makeup and change the way i dress and so on and so on.... thirty minutes later i was feeling pretty down. And i started to think about how all of what they were saying was an exact echo of the things that society has been whispering in girls ears as we've grown up. A girl's beauty should be measured from the inside out. Our God, our Creator, made us exactly the way he intended for us to be and no one can tell us that we need to be any different. Proverbs 31:30 says that "Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." In first Samuel 16:7 it says that "man looks at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart" Girls you are absolutely beautiful! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise because they don't have any right to. The God of the universe created you in his image and you are gorgeous just the way you are. The King of Kings loves you with his whole heart and considers you a daughter which makes you a true princess in the kingdom of heaven. I pray that you will all begin to see your beauty through the eyes of our Lord and Saviour instead of through they eyes of the world because that will transform the way that you view yourself. While the world may tear apart your self esteem and try to bring you down just remember to take a step back and listen to the whisper of your heavenly father telling you that you are beautiful and that you are loved far more than you will ever be able to fathom.

Please check out this video:
I love you guys, Keep shining his light!

"Beauty in the flesh attracts the wandering lust of the eye, but the beauty from within takes hold of the thoughts from within the conscious heart and brings forth the truth."

Friday, March 26, 2010

Do all things joyfully and out of love

Sometimes i look back on the times where i was forced to kind of "grow up" in hurry, with regret. But other times i realize that God put me in those situations for a reason. When my dad and step mom got divorced i cooked and cleaned and did the laundry. I did the grocery shopping and brought my little sister to arabic school on saturdays and it wasn't always fun but i did it out of love for my family. Right now i'm laying on the living room floor. I'd been laying on the couch upstairs so i'd be able to hear my dad if he needed anything downstairs but everytime he moved, or inhaled deeply, or moaned i'd rush downstairs afraid that something was wrong. I realized that i wasn't going to get any rest that way so i brought my blanket and pillow downstairs. I love my dad and the rest of my family and i realize that i may not ever get the chance to witness to them, and if i do it may not be anytime soon. But there are things i can do. I can love them, and serve them, and sacrafice for them. I can do everything joyfully and out of love as if i'm doing it for Christ. I can do my best to reflect God's love for them, even if i can't talk to them about it right now.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Reach Out

My dad had quad bypass open heart surgery on tuesday night. It scared me to death. What if he didnt make it??? See my dad's muslim and if I lost him without ever having been able to share the truth with him it would have broken my heart. Its ignited a new sense of fervor in me. I got down on my knees that night and pleaded for my dad and my family in a whole new way. It brought the feeling of urgency to a whole new level. You never know what moment will be your last and we should be living with a passion and intensity that reflects that. Im emotionally and physically drained, but spiritually i have a renewed fiery passion and I pray that God doesnt take this burden off my heart. I need to be reaching out

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Assignment that made me think....

In AP english we're studying Macbeth and theres a witches brew scene in there where the rythym of the play changes. We were assigned to write at least 10 lines in that same pattern about what was wrong with our world today and then put them into our own "hells broth pot" Now overlook the witches and hell references this assignment really got me thinking about all things wrong with out world today. Here's what I came up with:
VH1 and MTV
Constantly we hear and see
Sex we use to fill a void
Shame and guilt and lives destroyed
Earthquakes shake and fear inspire
Things on Earth have grown quite dire
Hearts are swayed and feet do stray
Lies leave hearts in disarray
Words that hurt and wrists that bleed
Life goes on we pay no heed
For our dear worlds hope to grow
To the pot this all must go

So what things do you see in our world that need to change? Ghandi once said "you must be the change you wish to see in the world" and i agree 100%. If you dont like it, do something to change it. Agree about the MTV? Theres a petition at Donate to the earthquake victims, Don't judge those who make mistakes, show love to those around you. Be Christ to those that surround you because for some of them the only Christ they'll ever see is the evidence of him in your life. Keep livin in out :)

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Don't be afraid

We all have things in our lives that scare us. We worry that we can't handle them and we're afraid of how things will turn out. Those are the times when it's so important to remember that we don't have to go at it alone. God is always right there with us.

Psalm 112:7
He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD.

Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Isaiah 41:13
For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.

So when you're stressing out, afraid or worried just remember that God is always there for you. He's as close as a silent thought or whisper and he'll never let you down. Turn to him in prayer if you feel like its not worth praying about then its probably not worth worrying about ;) Love you all, God bless!

Thursday, March 11, 2010

To Save A Life

The new Indie move "To Save A Life" is changing lives! I've seen it four times now, each time with a different group of people that i really wanted to see it. I've watched the expressions of my confirmation girls and listened to what they had to say after after saying that it was the best movie they'd ever seen they said that it really changed how they saw things and a girl who had come with some of the girls from my class is now a FORMER athiest. Praise God! I've also heard from some of my High school friends that this movie has really made them step back and reevaluate their lives, and their faiths. I've talked with still other kids who had grown up in the church but never really believed and say that this shed a totally new light on God and what it means to be a Christian. God is using this movie and if you haven't seen it I strongly suggest you do :)

Saturday, March 6, 2010

a HEART of worship

Main Entry: 1wor·ship
Pronunciation: \ˈwər-shəp also ˈwȯr-\
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English worshipe worthiness, respect, reverence paid to a divine being, from Old English weorthscipe worthiness, respect, from weorth worthy, worth + -scipe -ship
Date: before 12th century

1 chiefly British : a person of importance —used as a title for various officials (as magistrates and some mayors)
2 : reverence offered a divine being or supernatural power; also : an act of expressing such reverence
3 : a form of religious practice with its creed and ritual
4 : extravagant respect or admiration for or devotion to an object of esteem

5. a feeling of profound love and admiration

So what is worship really? Well before we go there i just want you to read a few verses and really think about them for a moment:
Psalm 139:13
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.

Genesis 1:1
1 In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.

Luke 12:7
Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

God created us. He created the world and not only the world but the entire universe and everything in it. He know our hearts, he knows our every thought. He has seen every tear we have ever cried and he Loves us more then we could ever comprehend. So now back to worship, to worship means to attribute worth to something or someone. God doesn't really need us to tell him that he is worthy; he is whether we choose to attribute that worth to him or not, but when you think of the amazing things that our Lord has done, of his ultimate sacrafice, of how much he loves us and all the things that are in store for those that love him how could we not worship him? We are so unworthy of his love and he is more than worthy of our complete adoration. Worship isn't a style of music or an act you put on for the people around you. Music is a wonderful way to express to God how much you love him, but thats not all it is. Worship should be a lifestyle... everything we do should point to God and attribute worth to him. Every year i go to this conference called Acquire the Fire and every year it amazes me to see hundreds of kids lost in worship and i say lost in the sense of them being completely oblivious to the people around them, not caring what anyone thinks, getting down on their knees, raising their hands, closing their eyes, and literally crying out to God. Our generation is suffering, dragged into the church is on sunday mentality we're falling away from the truth and I can't help but wonder what would change if we simply lived a life of worship. If on sundays we sang along and truly meant it...and then didn't stop. If we listened to the Holy Spirits calling and reached out to those around us and loved them as Christ loves us. We can worship God in everything we do and thats how we should try to live... With a true heart of worship

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

You can see God in anything.....

Have you ever had a thought that turned into an analogy when you thought about it longer? It happened to me about two o'clock this morning. It's not the best analogy but without all my devotionals and such, reminders while Im at my dad's house are a blessing. So here's the story, I'd been in a small car accident (nothing serious) and a piece of my fender had fallen off and the bulb for my right hand turn signal and everything around it had been shattered. I drove around like this for a week or two but when i brought the car to my father's house he saw the damage and told me that I deserved better and he would fix it for me. He took it into the shop and it took a little time to track down the right pieces in the right color but it happened. A few days later he drove the car back with me in the passenger seat, he took it through the car wash and vaccumed it and it looks really nice again. It looks like new, it will still need oil changes, car washes, tire rotations and it will need to be filled with gas on a regular basis but its fixed.
I think that God, our heavenly father does the same for his children, he wants us to be happy and he wants us to have life and have it to the fullest. When we stray from the road that he has for us we get hurt and our relationship with him suffers. God calls us back to him and he can restore us fully, it takes time and the process is never done but he can heal all our hurts and pains if we're willing to let him have control. Once the process of restoring our relationship with him is started we have to keep being "refueled" by digging into his word, prayer and fellowship with other believers. But unlike a 300 dollar car repair God paid the ultimate price for our restorations and repairs; his son. Who knew that a simple car repair could remind me that God isn't finished with me and that If I turn to him he can restore me. I may make a wrong turn here and there but I'll never be completely lost because ultimately he's in control.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

The Tough Stuff

After sixth hour a few weeks ago, as I stood gazing into my locker trying to remember what exactly it was that I needed for my next hours Chem lab, a kid suddenly smashed into the locker next to mine and it startled me. But what happened next was even more startling. The kid who had pushed him shoved him to the floor and began throwing punches. The kid rolled out and began fighting back. Of course it was right at this moment as a crowd had begun to gather, no one was doing anything useful of course, that an announcement came over the intercom saying that we were going to have a lockdown drill. So a teacher comes around the corner to see the two boys, still fighting and tells them simply to cut it out and get to seperate classrooms for the drill and then walks away. I was confused by this response considering the blood coming from the one kids nose. So i moved on to my next hour class for the drill. Because you go to the nearest classroom once the drill actually begins there were some kids in my classroom who aren't actually a part of my class and during the drill i was saddened to hear every detail of the girls' conversation. I heard about the party, the drinking, the breakup, the rebound with his best friend and the pregnancy scare all in a matter or 12 minutes. What is our generation coming to? It's scary and all of these are real and prevalent issues for teenagers in our society. Within the same day I added to the list of problems that I saw facing my high school and our generation as a whole. I listened to a friend share about the thoughts they'd had about committing suicide and they're attempt to do so (Thank God that he has brought them through that and that they're doing much better) I saw a 7th grade girls wrists,scarred from cutting, (I didnt know her and she disappeared before I had the chance to catch her name or talk to her) and I listened to a group of Junior boys talk about chewing, and what drugs give the best high for cheap. God has called me to go into youth ministry and it pains me to think of the harsh realities that I am going to have to deal with. As for now I've resolved to do whatever I can to make an impact or at least raise awareness in our school about the problems that these kids are dealing with. In our school this process starts with a leadership group called S.L.A.M. Many of my friends and I were chosen last year to be a part of this group and we already talk to kids about Postponing Sexual Involvement we've tried to get involved with an organization called "To Write Love On Her Arms" that is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery . April is child abuse awareness month and we hope to do something at the school to raise awareness for that and maybe volunteer our time at one of the crisis centers in town. Our latest project however deals specifically with our school and our generation and it involves a movie called "To Save A Life". Its an Indie film that takes a good look at many of the issues facing our generation. The group is going opening weekend to raise awareness amongst ourselves and then spread the word about the movie throughout the school. There is a Christian theme in the movie and although the group is school sponsored and not specifically affiliated with any religion many members of the group are believers so for us this movies potential is double. It will raise awareness as well as provide opportunities for us to share our faiths. I've realized that Sometimes its important to take a step back and look at all the things that are wrong with our generation. Its really hard for me to admit that we are straying so far from what is right. I went through High school often times acting as if these issues were not prevalent in our community but that denial didnt make the problems disappear and it certainly didnt help in any way. So here's to my last 3 and a half months of impact at this school. I pray that God will give me and those around me the courage to stand up for what is right and impact this school in a way that so obviously points to God that we will not only see a restoration in our school but a revival in our school and community.
In Christ,

Monday, March 1, 2010

Getting back on track...

So its senior year and I decided that with college ahead this was the year to make sure that my relationship with God was growing. I'll admit I'd been slacking quite a bit. So i dove head first into Bible studies, helping teach confirmation and youth group and it was all great at first. But then i discovered something. Being so involved with church activities didnt equal a stronger relationship with God. In fact i let it distract me from him. I realized that its kind of a balancing act. Those times of fellowship are really good, I learn a ton from my different studies and the fellowship with other believers is such a blessing to me but if Im going to be so involved i need to make sure that Im taking the time for some one on one with God. So i got back on track with digging into God's word. I'd kind of started to slide in that area. I told myself that i spent time in his word every day of the week in my other activites so when i got home i could kinda put my feet up and relax, but boy was I wrong. As soon as i got away from spending that time with him i began to get so distracted by everything that that time just dwindled more and more. So I've started making sure that I set aside that time each night to devote to him. God's also layed another thing on my heart through conversations with the girls and our sharing hopes aspirations and dreams. Every girl dreams of her wedding day and finding that one guy that God has for her and I am no exception. So I've started keeping a journal again. I did it when I was younger but for a while i had stopped. This journal I keep is filled with letters to my future husband and the prayers that I pray for him each night. I dont write in it every night but I do it at least once a week. I do however make a point of praying for my future husband in the morning when I wake up and at night before I go to sleep because I know that one day I'll love him with all my heart after God so why not start now? God is so good and I am so thankful that no matter how far I stray he will always draw me back into his loving embrace and show me how capable he is even in the midst of my tendency to be so terribly incapable. I hope that this has really made you reflect on what it means to have a relationship with Christ and that you have a blessed day.
In Christ,

So why exactly am I suddenly updating my blog?

I decided that if Im going to have this blog I may as well use it and use it in such a way that it brings glory and honor to God. At least that's my hope. So i started with some of my facebook notes and i hope to keep adding to my blog as the months go on and share the things that God is doing in my life and the many things that he lays on my heart. So enjoy I hope that God will use this in some way to further his kingdom

Bradley Hathaway :)

Like David, I wanna be a man after God's own heart. And I'm not there yet, but I'm past the start. And when people talk, I try to listen. A spirit of compassion, that's my vision. Surely I am a manly man. I want to be loved and have love and give love.

And not just that romantic kind either. Although I am looking for that beauty. Not helpless, but wants to be rescued. The damsel in distress, man, woman, myth, true. I will fight for her, climb the highest tower for her, love her, share with her, delight in her, be her warrior, her protector. She will be my crown and I will be hers. My masculinity will be passed down and affirmed to my sons. And each of my daughters will know they are lovely, and deserving of authentic romance.

Society tells me all day long that I've defined manhood completely wrong. But you ask any honest man, and he will agree. You ask any honest woman, and she too will see, that I am a manly man.

From: Manly Man

I Love this! and I am so blessed to have guy friends that remind me EVERY SINGLE DAY that guys like this are out there and that having a strong christian guy is worth the wait. So guys, you know who you are, thank you for being such Godly influences in my life.

So i dug out my CHIC notes....

Day 1
- We are not born as ordinary human beings. We are unique.
- Somewhere between our 1st and last breaths we lose the extra-ordinary essence of our being by living just an ordinary life
- Will my life really count?
- God places dreams and passions inside of us, but sometimes the rubble of our lives gets in the way
-If we made our dreams/passion our whole life would our world change?
-If we all had the courage to dream to change the world then we would find we had the courage to live out the dreams that God placed on our hearts.
-Live the dream God dreamed for you before you took your first breath.
-Don't let fear, doubt or lack of faith get in the way of the dream God has for you.
-There are things in our lives we can't do by ourselves, but there are also things that he has called us to do that he won't do for us
-Sometimes you have to jump and trust that God will catch you in mid-air

Day 2
-God has something for each of us
2 Corinthians 5:11-13
- Passionate people either scare us or create more passionate people
-What does it look like to be compelled by Christ?
1. We can't be compelled by Christ unless we truly know him/ spend time with him
2. Spend Time in Prayer
3. Spend time with others/fellowship
4. Am I talking about and living out of past faith experiences or am i building more? Is there progression in my faith?
5.Faith is something you do, not something you simply possess.
6. Touch the presence of God even if just for a moment and it will ruin everything else in comparison (thats a good thing!)
-Serving is simply loving others for their benefit not yours.
-Work w/o love is worthless
-Results in blessings for others and freedom for us
-Are you willing to put everything aside for the sake of Christ???

Shane Clayborne
-Kingdom isn't something we should look forward to its something that should be accomplished here on Earth
- " A lot of people tell stories like 'my life was messed up and then i met Jesus'... well for me it was pretty much the opposite. I pretty much had it all together and then i met Jesus and he MESSED ME UP. Im still recovering from my conversion."
-The best thing to do with the best things in life is to give them away.
-We're made to live for God's kingdom and use our lives to see it realized here on Earth.
-Epic Fail "How are you preparing for the economic crisis?.... we're building 5 new jails." WRONG!
-God is anything but safe... But God is good
-Christians were never meant to be normal. We were meant to be holy troublemakers
-Life Overcomes death and love overcomes hatred

Day 3
- "If you have sex before marriage its not a 'test drive' Its carjacking! Someday that'll be someone else's spouse."
- 1 Samuel 14:1-7
-God's promise is always bigger then your perhaps
- "Love desires to please someone else at the expense of self because love wants to give."

Human (sex) Trafficking
-Fastest growing criminal industry in the world
-17,500 foreign nationals are trafficked annually into the US
- But the # within the country is even higher at 200,000.


I'm half Palestinian. My dad and his whole family are muslim. When i was little my dad was having an affair, he was and alcoholic and he abused my mom. We moved to Alexandria when i was 2 years old. My dad got visitation rights back when i was around 4 years old and we would have supervised visits with him once a week. he left for a while and went overseas and when he came back he brought back with him a step mom a step brother and a step sister who i grew to love dearly. They had another daughter, my little sister zain the same year that my mom got remarried to a really great christian guy. I started going to visit my dad in the cities on weekends and thats how its been since. In 8th grade, my dad was sentenced to a year in federal prison for tax fraud and health care fraud. A few months after he got out I told him that i was a christian and he didnt take it very well at first but eventually we kind of agreed to disagree. I pray every night that someday he'll come to know the Lord. A few months later my dad and step mom of 12 years got divorced. 6 months later my dad got remarried to my current step mom. I love both of my step moms and they've both played significant roles in my life and i pray for them also. Through everything the ups the downs and the times that I've just wanted to cry God has never let me down. He's always been there to comfort me and when i turn to him in my struggle i know that he'll give me peace. I think its so important for us to realize that as christians God never promised us that our lives would be easy, in fact he guarantees adversity, but he promises that we will never have to face it on our own. Thats my story. Whats yours? Post it in your notes and tag people to pass it on! :) Love you guys, God bless!

Some of you guys have known me for years and others of you I've just met recently, but whatever the case God has blessed me by surrounding me with friends like you. There have been a lot of things in my life that have made me ask God 'why?' 'why do these things keep happening, what good could possibly come of this?' and for a long time God didnt answer that, but in the past few years God has revealed to me through certain circumstances that the things that have happened in my life were not for my benefit neccesarily but for the benefit of those that I would come in contact with. Its like when someone is struggling with something, and someone says "I understand" but they know they don't they kinda shut them out but when you've dealt with similar situations that can sometime open up doors that wouldnt be open otherwise. Its like a passage in 2 Corinthians 1:4-7 "3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 5 For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. 6 If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. 7 And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort." So if you're struggling with someone it may just end up being a huge blessing to someone who is dealing with something similar later on and no matter what trial you're up against, God is always right by your side

Plans for the future

So a few ppl have asked me what my plans are for next year, so here they are. I will be attending Gordon College in Wenham Massachusetts to major in Youth Ministry. I really feel like God has called me there. It was a really hard choice for me because i know i'll be so far away from home and the people I love. But when God tells you to do something you certainly don't argue. I one day hope to open a youth center. Im not sure where yet but Im sure that God will work all the details out in time or change my dream :) Im trusting him to guide me. For those of you have been supporting me and praying for me I love you and appreciate you. :) God Bless!

God's plan

So with college coming up and such I've been thinking a lot about God's will for me and for those around me and on top of that at FCA i know the idea of Divine Providence or God having a plan for lives has come up a couple times. How does free will work if God has a plan for our lives, or does God even have a plan for our lives? This topic is a hard one for us to understand. Personally i believe that God does have a will or plan for our lives and the free will comes into effect in the fact that we can choose to follow God's will or we can disregard it and follow our own paths. Feel free to disagree. I won't pretend to know all sorts of theological reasoning behind my belief that God directs our lives but i will point you to a few places in the Bible that make me believe so. Most of them are small references to plans or paths that God directs us on but these subtle yet very present hints make me believe that God does have a plan for each of us.

Job 23:10-11
"Yet he knows the way i have taken...My feet have followed his tracks; I have kept to his way and not turned aside."

Psalm 16:5
"...You hold my future."

Psalm 16:11
"...You reveal the path of life to me."

Psalm 23:3
"He renews my life; He leads me along the right paths."

Psalm 25:4
"Make your ways known to me, Lord; teach me your paths."

Psalm 25:12
"...He will show me the way i should choose."

Psalm 31:15
"The course of my life is in your power..."

Psalm 37:5
"Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act,"

I'll keep adding to this list as i go through my devotions each night. Im going through a study about having a heart like King Davids right now. He was a man after God's own heart and as you can see just in the book of psalms alone there are many verses that seem to point to God having a plan for our lives. Just a thought. Take it or leave it. God bless you guys

Every girl wants a knight in shining armor...

A Valiant gentleman riding a noble white steed rides into your life, sweeps you off your feet and whisks you away from all the problems in your life and you live happily ever after.... Most girls stop believing in this type of a once upon time tale pretty early on. But should we stop believing in the perfect ending?

Revelation 19:11-16
"Then i saw heaven opened, and there was a white horse! It's rider called faithful and true...And on his robe and on his thigh he has a name written: King of Kings and Lord of Lords."

Rewind: Once upon a time....
The King of Kings comes riding a noble white steed to judge the earth and establish a new heaven and a new earth. He sweeps you off your feet and whisks you away from the trials and hardships of this life and you live happily ever after in heaven. Literally. Revelation 21:4 says "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." Im not gonna go in depth or or try to interpret the meaning of any part of Revelation. I can't wrap my mind around it. But let me point something out to you guys. Our father, the King of Kings, loves us more than we could ever imagine. Every detail of our lives matter to him and he listens to us, comforts us, and cares for us. One day soon Christ will return and call his children back to live with him in heaven. All the hardships we know here will cease to exist and we truly will live happily FOREVER after.

If that isnt the perfect bedtime story i don't know what is :) Love you guys :)