So its senior year and I decided that with college ahead this was the year to make sure that my relationship with God was growing. I'll admit I'd been slacking quite a bit. So i dove head first into Bible studies, helping teach confirmation and youth group and it was all great at first. But then i discovered something. Being so involved with church activities didnt equal a stronger relationship with God. In fact i let it distract me from him. I realized that its kind of a balancing act. Those times of fellowship are really good, I learn a ton from my different studies and the fellowship with other believers is such a blessing to me but if Im going to be so involved i need to make sure that Im taking the time for some one on one with God. So i got back on track with digging into God's word. I'd kind of started to slide in that area. I told myself that i spent time in his word every day of the week in my other activites so when i got home i could kinda put my feet up and relax, but boy was I wrong. As soon as i got away from spending that time with him i began to get so distracted by everything that that time just dwindled more and more. So I've started making sure that I set aside that time each night to devote to him. God's also layed another thing on my heart through conversations with the girls and our sharing hopes aspirations and dreams. Every girl dreams of her wedding day and finding that one guy that God has for her and I am no exception. So I've started keeping a journal again. I did it when I was younger but for a while i had stopped. This journal I keep is filled with letters to my future husband and the prayers that I pray for him each night. I dont write in it every night but I do it at least once a week. I do however make a point of praying for my future husband in the morning when I wake up and at night before I go to sleep because I know that one day I'll love him with all my heart after God so why not start now? God is so good and I am so thankful that no matter how far I stray he will always draw me back into his loving embrace and show me how capable he is even in the midst of my tendency to be so terribly incapable. I hope that this has really made you reflect on what it means to have a relationship with Christ and that you have a blessed day.